It's been a long time since i've posted on this, as always. I'm am writing this on here because I know no one that knows me will ever read it & i'm scared because I feel like there is no one to talk to about it. So, Michael & I broke up a few weeks ago. We went through a lot. He got with a different girl but inevitably, he wanted to stay with me & that became very clear almost right after we broke up. I couldn't be more happy with him right now. He makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world and I really feel like all of our doubts and taking eachother for granted now are behind us now that we've been through such a horrible experience. I think we both realized how much we care about eachother and I never knew until now. It's something I can't describe. But that's not what I wanted to talk about. I promised myself that if I wanted this relationship to be perfect for hopefully the next year I would not talk to any guys. Well today I went to hang out with my friend Scott. All he used to really want to do is..you know with me but now that me and Michael are back together he seems to understand and I made it very clear to him that I just want to chill, he said sure we'll just watch some movies. As soon as I got to his house, I almost immeadiately wanted to leave. He asked what we should do and I said I don't know then he literally pulled me downstairs and said 'let's fuck.' I got really mad and said , 'you said we were just going to watch movies.' No matter how many times I said no he kept trying to take my pants off and I got so nervous I got sick. After an hour of his saying he won't talk to me again after this he took off my pants and said he's gonna eat me out. I didn't even say yes I just let him because I didnt know what to do. After that horrible experience which I didn't find fun at all he literally made me suck his dick and he came almost right away. I left, shaking and really wanting to go to Michael's to feel comforted. I wanted to cry and thank fuck Michael made me feel so much better. I never want to talk to that boy again and i'm scared cause I know he won't tell anyone and I shouldn't be blamed..but is this considered rape? I have no one to talk to :'(